I just want a place to express out myself.
and so here was what happen.

I came out from the toilet and then saw a familiar package at the corer of my roomates bed.
I went to school came back. and saw it still... I know im invading her privacy but i cannot help myself but go over to look whats in it for myself as i really am convince thats mine
Lo and behold. in there was indeed something that belong to me. so instead of taking it back
I did on purpose to go out ask her.
she denied and kept quiet and went back into the room.
okay fine package still there.
i asked around again... on purpose if people saw that or not.
obviously they didnt...
so while that particular roommate was sleeping,  i asked my other roommate if she happen to see it or not. even describe the look of my stuff and th package. that girl said she didnt saw it . Same moment my other sleeping roommate magically woke up and shifted the package under her pillow.
it was gone after she woke up .. (yes ive decided to take it back)

I thought I can get over the fact of it. and thought perhaps she really wants the cheap elastic band. consdering the fact she does ties them they are long. so a night passed. the next day feeling unhappy.
despite the various encouragement of people asking me to confront her. I decided not to.
partly coz i did not know how to handle the situation if it's true. then she surely deny to show her innocents. I also dont want to look like a bitch who cares about such cheap stuff...

somehow the idea of taking my stuff I get really bloody pissed. !!! like fucking pissed !
so i text her and another friend of mine offered to text her.
she did not reply my text message despite getting spammed.


Magically when  was about to take a nap. I saw my bag of hangers spilled all over. I went down from my bunk bed and took it up there was. she placed it back !!!!

but she replied my friend saying  something like " do you believe i took it? i dont even use elastic band... i didnt want to explain to her so i place it back among her stuff. it wasn't there and then it was there" ( fuck it ! i cannot remember the exact text but part of it may be her confrontation with me.

like double fuck !!!! do you need an excuse to steal stuff? I know I don't ... I stole my sisters cheap bracelet even for god known fact I cannot wear one because my wrist is too bloody small.. I stole it because i think it's nice ... there a confession from someone who had stolen stuff before. Another reason was because I was sick and needed something thrilling to pass my bloody time.

So then that other friend send me the text ... and well my slow reaction told me ... it's my fault i must have miss looked it... but as time went tick tocking away...The more i think something is admist. I went on thinking and thinking and then i felt really pissed and sick and disgusted of you mother fucking attitude...first your background ! total bullshit !!1 which i put up with you  not telling people... you fucking convinced me i was wrong i hear the wrong stuff. but now thinking back... fuck you my brain was functioning well....i can remember things well except calculus.

I mean does that even make perfect sense !!!! for her to tell me when i confronted her that "it wasn't there and then it was there ." like what mother fucking bloody basket anal excuse is that? are you MOTHER FUCKING TRYING TO BLOODY IMPLY THAT I PLACED THAT MOTHER FUCKING PACKAGE THERE TO ACCUSE YOU ?  like helloo.... If i were to bloody accuse you I would have chosen to put in a place more discreet than that and then confront you. I cannot believe you took the stuff and then twist the situation to beautifully let people have the idea i place that on your bloody bed !!!! damn you ! screw you !!!... i'm not that dumb.,..not especially when it's coming from someone who cries at tesco gate because she never ever jump que in her life but is okay about over taking people while driving..

YES  YOU CAN CALL ME A BITCH FOR BITCHING YOU ON BLOGGER. I BLOODY WANT TO BITCH YOU IN THE FACE LIKE SO BADLY ! BUT I FIGURED I WANT TO GIVE YOU ANOTHER ALTERNATIVE WAY TO LIVE ON SINCE YOUR SISTER IS IN CAMPUS. YOU ARE GOOD WITH YOUR ACTS. !!! YOU'RE LAZY TO TAKE OUT YOUR UMBRELLA AND JIA JIA PULL PEOPLES BAG SO THAT THEY SEE YOU AND SHARE THEIR UMBRELLA WITH YOU AND THEN THINKS HER OWN FRIEND WHO HAS THE EQUAL AMOUNT SIZE UMBRELLA IS NOT WILLING TO SHARE... YOUR MISSION WAS TO MAKE ME LOOK LIKE AN IDIOT? SERIOUSLY GO GET A LIFE... WELL I NEED TO GET A LIFE AS WELL THAN TO BITCH ALL NIGHT ABOUT YOU... I CAN IF I WANT... UNFORTUNATELY YOU'RE NOT WORTH MY TIME......

okay done.. i feel much better after taking this off my CHEST...  humans... takes me 2 years to get to know a person real bloody well... FUCK IT !

ahh the silent death of blogger... nothing much to blog about . but i'll keep this blog still... it's like this little place where i can express myself from time to time... gone were the days where I was active and so into blogging.

The blog backgroud of my blog page seem ugly. hahaha.. I have been delaying to change it. Anyway , I finally did it.. Ive changed the background... to one of their preset template. Still the couple of same old ones.. Sien much . .

anyway i'm ramble enough.. byeee

HYUNA 'Bubble Pop!'

i just felt like blogging all of the sudden

well yeah, watch the video above

hehehe... nice cars, sexy girl pretty legs...

I have no idea what shes saying but i felt the song is a bit catchy. lol.

Dont really fancy her style... probably it's because I know for fact I can never do what she did

but I love her make up look. and her dewy skin... heheh

shared it on Kai Xiuan's wall couple of weeks ago with the tag line "be turned on"... at least i assume it would to all males who watch... =)

I am still trying to talk him into agreeing to let me give him a make over becoming Tiffany , SNSD ... hehehehe...

and all i want is truth... 

one moment gold trader, next moment some human who designs gold (tukang emas)

one minute rich , FILTHY

next second poor ... 

...

one second love, next moment greedy

one moment cannot be together next moment can be together...

Truth...

thats all I want...

2 years , what are you?

2 FUCKING YEARS !!!!

if my dads a gold trader I wont be studying in a bloody public uni... I would be in UK or something

i mean hello GOLD !!!!!!!!

...

i mean i definitely know it's your choice . 

you did point out all your life you want to enter local uni and thats it.

then suddenly you tell me your sister is entering private as she wants it and September school is too long and she cannot wait..

then suddenly you said she changed her mind.

fair enough. 

then suddenly  you tell me reason is because you have financial problem. 

Malaysian currency is falling.

i mean I am not good in economics. But i know US shares and currency is dropping like shit.

Malaysian currency is still stable so far so good.

plus if it's gold you are playing with...

the bloody gold price is increasing !
...

fine , your choice, your freedom,

you might be gold trading

your wish might be to just enter uni and study a couple of degree because you are rich and you like studying

but up to a certain point... i am not sure myself to trust you or not.

...

i thought we are friends.

i treat you true like a friend.

i helped you in shit times.

when you are having food poisoning, i bloody went with you to the clinic and literally rip my face and and went and help you register in and argue with the fucking nurse as you cannot stop vomitting. 

i made you food 

made sure you had your medication on time. 

boiled water...

and not a single thank you...

...

when I'm sick, you bloody didnt even bother to boil me a fucking pail of water to shower on

give no fucks to my food and medication intake. and totally ignored me

I take it as you are busy.

fine.

...

uni projects... 

as much as you helped me, 

i didnt help you less either

i did your assignments

and helped you wrote essays as well

i even edited your work

but then when i need your help,

just some crap summary of 5 sentence for all 10 articles to be submitted to the economics lecturer.

...

I helped you in test 

but you didnt reciprocate

you gave answers to the china girl and not me

and the only one you helped me, it was so obvious we got caught and i got warning.

lucky both are okay...

Fine I dont mind, My fault for being dumb in school.

i dont mind at all... 

...

my point is. I just want a straight forward truth..

i dont care if holiday you isolate yourself from people,

you dont respond to calls

your goal is to buy house

i dont care all of it...

i just want the truth...

thats what friends do. 

I wonder hows life for everyone else whom I know

hope it's going on good..

as for me 

I have my own problems

but neh wont be mentioning it out here

more to like

what's the point

oh well...

is my fault too in a way...

but yeah should not expect much either

lesson learnt 

what ever

... 

thats all for my update..

I may be smiling ... but i'm keeping it all inside... not showing...

I just need some time ... a break from all these..

I'm okay...

don't worry...

take care all...

been quite some time since I last blogged

Life have been hectic

but it's been amazing ... hehehe...

I experienced things Ive never tried before...

and it wasn't so bad... hahaha...

...

take care all..

waaaaah

sien max

service ended early..

and I'm being soooooooooooooooooo lifeless...

so so so

hows life?

hope everything went on well..

...

as for me ...

life have been amazing

in face too amazing...

i'm begining to worry why is it so amazing.

i mean seriously... hahaha...

...

after being on planet earth for 22 years...

erm

finally

...

i

know

is

a

bit

sampat

but

wow

holding hands is kinda fun !

especially when you are holding the hands of someone you love?

wonder why didn't I discover this art 10 years ago...

hahaha

...

it's fun in a way

after various trial and error and getting hurt etc.

i'd say finally found someone which suite me?

i don't know what the future have for us...

we'll just see how things goes...

...

chinese new year is just around the corner...

how will you be celebrating it?

as for me...

nothing much will just stay home with my family and well lets hope something interesting will pop up shall we?

...

take care everyone

despite the few hickups from here and there

life have been fairly interestingly fun

Am I in love?

Is that love?

argh....

....

anyway,

my hostels internet connection suck badly.

and because of that I'm now at the library enjoying cooling aircondition

I'm guessing it must be the air

could not be something which i've ate...

argh. whatever

it's hist some itchy hives i've developed around my houth

and it did looked a little as though I'm related closely to donald duck.

as it swell a ltittle and itches

I learnt from my mother that my sister is also facing the same problem.

itchy and then dry lip till it like i don't know how to describe, erm crack and bleed?

same case like mine..

No matter how much water we drown ourselves in ... it just wont work..

yup... my sister is applying thick petroleum jelly and it worked fror her...

as for me...

I had to sleep with lip balm and lipgloss

aih... whats the weather turning in to....

...

take care everyone....

yes you who care about my 2 cents worth of opinion... XD



hahahaha

the picture Bryan shared. was damn funny.

The first thing I was starring at was her boobs of which it looked like some stuffed papers in there. hahaha

and after shortly studying the picture with my housemate we saw what we had to see. hahahaha

anyway...

....

aih.... I want everything to be mine

i assume that so long I don't do a certain stuff 

i'll attract the same sort of people.

...

I , was being an asshole

I 'reserved' the beach for myself

and well  'reservations is canceled' now

I don't think I like the beach anymore.

well I'd probably love the beach still.. but it'll be just that and nothing more. 

I don't know... I just dont...
....
would have accepted it better if it wasn't anywhere near the beach or on the beach.

hou guai sad ah

Aih.... 

anyway , in memory of an amazing pet.. my friends and I came to a decision of 

"pat nang kao kwong chou hao" for 2 days... hahaha

I know it's kinda sampat

but well it's out of respect 

...

and so another week begins... 

looking forward to going home

I'm tired of my life here already

I forsee a very emo semester ahead

Kai Xiuan, don't upset already okay?

Nick, thanks for teaching me how to care for hammies

SY, you've been a great sister to little Nut

Lemon, You're a great Ah Yi Yi also...

Daniel, Sorry... =( 

and to everyone else who have shown love to him...

Thank you so much...

He shall now rest in peace...

Take care everyone...